flayed and ready

cafe med club kiss

"sister" collage 5x7 2007

random pairing

moody and dark

people that need pictures

in the jaw bone of an ass

love for sale

cuts to the heart

alex stirred but not shaken

you

and me

self portrait

hey

just posting some collages that i have found interesting maybe you have seen them before but not for a while. they have been in the vault often called a box.

golden gate hard

frastley

another poem from 1993

distress disorder
no identity without
rely and die
re-edit emotion
a cause to kill
solitude sucks me
schreeching silence
bed bound

arrive alive
acquire anger
fuck it fight it
judge me dogshit
pretentious liberal
psuedo intellectual
replicate replicate
expect me not to hate

today i turned off the tv

and i have been going through papers and pictures. i didn't get an art show that i applied for so that was a little disappointing. but i have been going through all of my collages over the last four years. and i will apply again in oct. i think my collages are strong work.

a poem from 1993 when i could write and read

curiously incandescent eyes
ejaculate
brooding. brimming arousal
cutthroat killer cache in core

burnished bubbles boil from below
alcoholic brume
saturably entombed
murder cools within alone

intrigued into another
sly love subterfuge
additional amiable avenues
to death do us part

a fragile kiss
feint. frailer
aches wishing for seditionary seduction
psycho killer comes alive

for this lie you'll die

"andre" little boy prayers to christ

alex with cape

fish hook kiss

""andre" a wolf in sheeps clothing"

""alex" binge and purge"

MARble presents

the return of alex and andre. those who remember and have the whole story and now they are back a little bit older a little more transformed. andre wears alot more wigs. and alex's lust for young boys has brought him to a battle of anorexia. keep watching

one dull grey afternoon

and those eyes that drew my into wonderful sin. hey hey listening to the chameleons uk, thinking of you today you know who you are you changed my life for the better. the only thing that would make this memory better would be some pot. god it has been a long time since i have been high. spending today with the headphones on avoiding the phone and the door bell..... i am blocking out the world and living in my imaginary universe that i call home. i will have new art on monday. have to buy batteries for my cam. and then you can see..... but you won't see me.

james the penetrater

so he rang my doorbell yesterday and i refused to answer. he is a thief and a liar.

i tried to forget

so it has been a long 2 weeks and i am tired of sleeping 18 hours a day just to avoid the real issues
i sleep to avoid the real issues but on tues. my therapist made me face reality and it wasn't pleasent. i would have liked more blood involved. the things we as an american with freedom of speech can sometimes get us into trouble. oh my god he is psychotic. the media is trying to promote that every mentally ill person is a killer and that is completely uncalled for. i am tired of the media and the news on the VT shooting. it has become dull and i don't want to hear it anymore. there are more pressing issues like the president who thinks he is king of our country and can do whatever the fuck he wants. and while i am polictically active in my own way i hate the way our country is going. so much fighting over a war that didn't concern us in the first place. GW is just trying to make a legacy. but in truth we know he is a drunk and a sober drunk is the worst kind of drunk ..... these are just my thoughts . .. maybe the fbi is monitoring me i have a right to free speech
enough said
MARble

""james"; liars, fuckers, and other penetraters"

"sad"

ms. M.... self portrait/collage 5/7 2007

born to swim

hey hey

it is just judgement. my mother said i should go back to church to find friends. ok fuck that.ha ha can you see me as a butt fucker in the chapel.i will be here for you i will be there for you to come out. come out i say come out
and cum

"equality" collage 2007 5x7

i'll use you as my weapon

"beauty" collage 5x7 2006

is of the devil

"one" collage 2006 5x7

one queer nation against god

wish collage 5x7 2006

brothers 5x7 collage

this one i made fof J we're brothers

4 ur ass

"lost" ......collage 2006 november 5x7

direction

i am in a dark mood today. i am thinking of B & J and the bottle and the guys who loved me and took care of me it is diffucult to hate them when i love them but i do hate some things about them but they have always saved me in extreme cirumstances.

trail the chase

a few reminders

the process

family pumpkin carving party

collage 5x7 2006

be noticed. collage 5x7 2006 

pussycat thrill

sleep and dream

collage 4x6 2006

so to catch you up

i have been having problems and am very poor this month i had to buy a new scanner. and then my pc. is having some sort of electrical problem and won't rip or sync cds. to my mp3 player. i came back from l.a. with alot of new cds that i can only listen to at home. it really sucks. sometimes when i am downloading a pic from my camera it will freeze up. and sometimes when i am working in adobe it shuts itself off. any ideas. i don't have the money this month to get it looked at. so i will have to wait until next month. it totally shut down a couple of weeks ago and the power was still working so i had to unplug everything and plug it in one at a time and restart to see what was the problem and it was the scanner so that was an expense and now i am really poor. i had to cancel my subscription to the NY times. so i could get some money. i still might have to take out a loan... anyway so now i have limited use of my pc but i don't know when it might freak out again. i have been very depressed.
i met this guy at one of my neighbors and he was cute and flirting with me but he turned out to be an ass and stole from me. but the good news is that after drinking at my house he went on a burglary spree. and was arrested. broke into four houses and stole a car and hit an officer so he is in jail for now. thank god. it really freaked me out. i was so drunk i had a black out and don't even know if i were raped. it really scares me so now i have to get an std test in 6 months. so all this shit has built up and i don't want to do much besides watch my soaps and lay in bed. and i have insomnia really bad sometimes i don't sleep for 2 or 3 days in a row and then i crash.
but i will survive i hope and get back to work soon

matt and me and a bottle of V