"beauty" collage 5x7 2006

is of the devil

"one" collage 2006 5x7

one queer nation against god

wish collage 5x7 2006

brothers 5x7 collage

this one i made fof J we're brothers

4 ur ass

"lost" ......collage 2006 november 5x7

direction

i am in a dark mood today. i am thinking of B & J and the bottle and the guys who loved me and took care of me it is diffucult to hate them when i love them but i do hate some things about them but they have always saved me in extreme cirumstances.

trail the chase

a few reminders

the process

family pumpkin carving party

collage 5x7 2006

be noticed. collage 5x7 2006 

pussycat thrill

sleep and dream

collage 4x6 2006

so to catch you up

i have been having problems and am very poor this month i had to buy a new scanner. and then my pc. is having some sort of electrical problem and won't rip or sync cds. to my mp3 player. i came back from l.a. with alot of new cds that i can only listen to at home. it really sucks. sometimes when i am downloading a pic from my camera it will freeze up. and sometimes when i am working in adobe it shuts itself off. any ideas. i don't have the money this month to get it looked at. so i will have to wait until next month. it totally shut down a couple of weeks ago and the power was still working so i had to unplug everything and plug it in one at a time and restart to see what was the problem and it was the scanner so that was an expense and now i am really poor. i had to cancel my subscription to the NY times. so i could get some money. i still might have to take out a loan... anyway so now i have limited use of my pc but i don't know when it might freak out again. i have been very depressed.
i met this guy at one of my neighbors and he was cute and flirting with me but he turned out to be an ass and stole from me. but the good news is that after drinking at my house he went on a burglary spree. and was arrested. broke into four houses and stole a car and hit an officer so he is in jail for now. thank god. it really freaked me out. i was so drunk i had a black out and don't even know if i were raped. it really scares me so now i have to get an std test in 6 months. so all this shit has built up and i don't want to do much besides watch my soaps and lay in bed. and i have insomnia really bad sometimes i don't sleep for 2 or 3 days in a row and then i crash.
but i will survive i hope and get back to work soon

matt and me and a bottle of V 

just matt

figuring things out at bats day don't we look fabulous 

M&M 

me in the sea of black at bat's day at disneyland 

frastley in orange 

drunken thoughts ready for bed 

bats day fun in the park 

a couple of pics from bats day fun in the park

it was fun i enjoyed myself for the most part but would i go back? it was really crowded and lots of kids which i cannot stand. but more later after i have rested

rework from a poem created in 1992

kick. hit. scream
blood. filled. bowells.
seep it down into the throat of august.

flowers. wilt. smell.
a scented paradise, of
funeral homes flooded,
with smiling sad himan flesh

kick. hit. scream
covered by coffins
endless rooms with doorways distant

distant

creep. shake. shiver.
splinters
forced beneath nails

close the coffin
shut the doors
dream of paradise



this one is for kelsie :}

fragment

find juju and rip in tides in time
get a frazier chourus talk to mel.
thats where your emptiness goes
laser pen. oil change
thats where our emptiness goes
roomates? no one yelled
bring brooke to an arrangement
with sanity somehow.

my way to l.a.

so i am one my way to l.a. on wed. and headed for bar sinister saturday night and bats day fun in the park at disney land on sunday. i am assured to have a good time since i have plenty stocked up to drink. it will be great to see my friends and i will come back with great pics to post for you.

can you get any better

i wonder what is next for the cure after this great albumn bloodflowers...... at this moment i can think of nothing else. one of the first times i got stoned on pot was to go to the local theater stoned off my ass and watch the cure in orange.... good times in slc

give me antony

or give me death

DROWN 24x36 charcoal and conte crayon on paper 2006 

it is good to be back

i am working again and have my camera again and am working on a new style. your comments are welcome. please i appreciate them and i apologize for being away for so long. things got a little bad for me emotionally. but i am going to try and keep up.
my new work i am hoping is going to be great and turn your head around and make you think deeply. the christian right wants to eliminate gays. but i won't go without a fight. i want the same rights that everyone else gets under the constitution but they want to change it to discriminate against us. which makes me sad as a fighter for freedom for who i am and who i shall become. support the aclu and stand up for your rights.
marble

yes me again i am glad to have my camera back