courage and fraidy cat

my love 1985 ride

andre transgendered

ok enough with kids

so yesterday when i went out there were these 3 bitches. they all had there strollers and were blocking any other traffic on the sidewalk but they didn't care and they wouldn't move for anyone.
i hate young mothers that think they are superior just because they gave birth. well i have felt pain and i got through it. but it doesn't mean that you bitches can block my sidewalk with your strollers. i mean a 3 in a row pushing down my walking path and you expect me to me to move cuz i dress different than you can understand. fuck .

halloween 2007

alex at the masquerade

hallow's eve moon (self portrait)

alex's coffin tales

mother

locker room
undress
boner protests
skinny pants
a frail ass
i love myself
i meant masturbate
give a little hate
pass out
watch out
4 moma's spy
getting boys to cry
checking shorts
moonlit kiss
she has a list

scattered urine

my friend alex

pale white skin
blood tastes like sin
alex underground
coffee coffin tales
alex prevails

russell says hello
acid time - let's go
beautiful beautiful

need some pot
stomach tied in knots
alcoholic gloom
this is my private room

carry me home

suicide catch
my chance at last
depression glance
angel dust, just ask
cocaine cocaine
my drug rain (reign)
photograph
my lost chance
banish my thoughts
hide your cock
alcoholic sick
give me a lick
mouth mouth
out at last

jase

cut caught blood taste
scat scat human waste
cum on j's chest
we will forget
mask collapse
it's just one dance
just one kiss
hit or miss
friday night
lost light
give me a savior
just one favor

blur

memories like whispers
barry says hey mister
shy butt
give myself a cut
shit shit
give me a hit

want to get high
get a good ride
i hide
and you collide
M

1987

souls sought
ward talks
my fucked up thoughts
cigs smoked
give up hope
J retreats
my meat
blood shot eyes
my disguise
eighties dance
no chance
thoughts of kiss
just one miss

company 2007

Reconnect
Another reject
Beer project
A little closet
Killer sound
Look around
Love to cut
Just one fuck
Alex bitten
Twice shy
Tonight he will rise
Lars shot
You broke my heart

"shove it" self portrait

words for kelsie

Dogs bark
Too dark to park
Shatters time
At midnight

Spells cast
Who will last
Eyes seared in pain
I’m awake at 1:15 again

Brian blue hair
With fish hook lips

Drinking beer
Genital warts
Stranger's parts
Slide into my heart

Dreary
breathe in quick
Catch the high
Time to say good bye

andre blood vomit (the transision begins)

alex free fall into darkness.

alex free fall into darkness.

can i drag you to a corner of hell

assorted thoughts assorted dreams

andre untitled

andre knows victorias secret

alex observes the kill

alex admires

"andre" says "give me one more hole"

the act of murder ( alex's young love)

flaming andre in foster grants with push up bra

flayed and ready

cafe med club kiss

"sister" collage 5x7 2007

random pairing

moody and dark

people that need pictures

in the jaw bone of an ass

love for sale

cuts to the heart

alex stirred but not shaken

you

and me

self portrait

hey

just posting some collages that i have found interesting maybe you have seen them before but not for a while. they have been in the vault often called a box.

golden gate hard

frastley

another poem from 1993

distress disorder
no identity without
rely and die
re-edit emotion
a cause to kill
solitude sucks me
schreeching silence
bed bound

arrive alive
acquire anger
fuck it fight it
judge me dogshit
pretentious liberal
psuedo intellectual
replicate replicate
expect me not to hate

today i turned off the tv

and i have been going through papers and pictures. i didn't get an art show that i applied for so that was a little disappointing. but i have been going through all of my collages over the last four years. and i will apply again in oct. i think my collages are strong work.

a poem from 1993 when i could write and read

curiously incandescent eyes
ejaculate
brooding. brimming arousal
cutthroat killer cache in core

burnished bubbles boil from below
alcoholic brume
saturably entombed
murder cools within alone

intrigued into another
sly love subterfuge
additional amiable avenues
to death do us part

a fragile kiss
feint. frailer
aches wishing for seditionary seduction
psycho killer comes alive

for this lie you'll die

"andre" little boy prayers to christ

alex with cape

fish hook kiss

""andre" a wolf in sheeps clothing"

""alex" binge and purge"

MARble presents

the return of alex and andre. those who remember and have the whole story and now they are back a little bit older a little more transformed. andre wears alot more wigs. and alex's lust for young boys has brought him to a battle of anorexia. keep watching

one dull grey afternoon

and those eyes that drew my into wonderful sin. hey hey listening to the chameleons uk, thinking of you today you know who you are you changed my life for the better. the only thing that would make this memory better would be some pot. god it has been a long time since i have been high. spending today with the headphones on avoiding the phone and the door bell..... i am blocking out the world and living in my imaginary universe that i call home. i will have new art on monday. have to buy batteries for my cam. and then you can see..... but you won't see me.

james the penetrater

so he rang my doorbell yesterday and i refused to answer. he is a thief and a liar.

i tried to forget

so it has been a long 2 weeks and i am tired of sleeping 18 hours a day just to avoid the real issues
i sleep to avoid the real issues but on tues. my therapist made me face reality and it wasn't pleasent. i would have liked more blood involved. the things we as an american with freedom of speech can sometimes get us into trouble. oh my god he is psychotic. the media is trying to promote that every mentally ill person is a killer and that is completely uncalled for. i am tired of the media and the news on the VT shooting. it has become dull and i don't want to hear it anymore. there are more pressing issues like the president who thinks he is king of our country and can do whatever the fuck he wants. and while i am polictically active in my own way i hate the way our country is going. so much fighting over a war that didn't concern us in the first place. GW is just trying to make a legacy. but in truth we know he is a drunk and a sober drunk is the worst kind of drunk ..... these are just my thoughts . .. maybe the fbi is monitoring me i have a right to free speech
enough said
MARble

""james"; liars, fuckers, and other penetraters"

"sad"

ms. M.... self portrait/collage 5/7 2007

born to swim

hey hey

it is just judgement. my mother said i should go back to church to find friends. ok fuck that.ha ha can you see me as a butt fucker in the chapel.i will be here for you i will be there for you to come out. come out i say come out
and cum

"equality" collage 2007 5x7

i'll use you as my weapon