but sitting in front of the pc. listening to music and having some beers. i am just waiting for my checks to come in. i have been shopping and when my checks start arriving i will have to decide what toys i want to buy. mostly the things i was are focused on art....just one little pleasure an 60 gig mp3 player. but mostly i am just entertaining myself shopping. i haven't had the money to shop for such a long time. and now with my big ssi check coming in. i am spending it all on art toys. and then i will get poor again and depressed but at least i will have some new toys to play with. i am lonely today. but i am up and out of bed which is always a good thing. i struggle to make it out of bed everday.
last night i had vampire dreams of terror and i kept waking up so finally i got up at three am to stop the cycle of the dreams. they were freaking me out. so i had a cig and went back to bed the dream cycle stopped. at one point i was screaming and i don't know if i was doing it just in the dream or outloud. i hope it wasn't outloud but that has been know to happen before. after several vampire dreams of terror and waking up i dreamt that i had found this church which i thought was safety but i went inside seeking santuary. and i only discoved it was a black church of satan. i screamed.
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