heat and depression..

i have not wanted to move and spent saturday and much of sunday just laying in bed and sleeping. i finally got up today. and cleaned my apt. it was a mess. it tends to turn into chaos when i am working and working on the vodka. it has been 7 days since i have had a cig. i really hope that when i get my money again i won't buy them because i simply can't afford them and run out of them and then i have to suffer with out them for a few days and today has been bad. but i really want to quit.