3 AM

woke up at 3 am again this morning. it has already been a rough morning filled with paranoia. i have just been sitting here with my walkman listening to music and reading. the whole neighbor incident from friday has left me fragile and unhappy. i feel like they are watching my every move, and i know it seems a bit irrational. they can't possibly know what i am doing in my apt. and i am not doing anything wrong, but i just can't help but feel upset about everything. i am just trying to live my life quiet and alone. i can't help that i am private and unsocial.